Saturday, November 21, 2009

Most Blessing Things in My Life (1- Memories)

Today is one of those wired days when I think of something and find it somewhere around me. This made me insist on posting about it although I am having an exam tomorrow and I hadn't finish study yet.

Today on my way home, I though about the best blessing Allah had gave us: Memories.
When I got home, I found an episode of Oprah's show, it was an old one but I watched it anyway. One of the guests on the show was a woman who remembers everyday in her life with its exact dates and exact events. She also remembers every news she ever heard about with its date and time.

I believe memories can change a person's life, at least for me. I can't imagine how my life would be without all the memories I have. I have an emotional memory, which keeps any thing that had ever touched me one way or another.
I remember so many things from my childhood, school days and even some sad days.
I know this may sound overestimation, but I remember most of the conversations I had by word.

Memories are the most precious thing anyone can have. It makes me wonder how our brains can save this much of memories with that much of details and why we remember some events while forget others...

For me, I only wish to keep memories I have, and memories I will have in the future, till the day I die.

Friday, November 6, 2009

Super Control Girl

Three years age, one of my best best friends said about me that I am "Super Control". I remember that I laughed and though that he is just over-reacting as I thought I don't have that much control.

Three years later, I have to admit, He is totally right.

Before you jump to any conclusions about me, finish this till the end first.

I was never that tough girl that cares to no one but herself (and I am not even like that now). Actually anyone could push me to cry anywhere anytime he wants, yeaa believe it. I was the first one to cry if anyone is shouting even if he is not shouting at me.

Then with time, I met more people. I have been in different situations. All these things made me realize the truth, I make my own decision. It is my right to be happy and I am the only one responsible for making me happy or sad.

The way I was raised created the feeling with this right in me but maybe I was too afraid to use when I was a little girl. Dealing with different people, being out there alone pushed me to try to make my decision for once and use this right as a change, and thanks to Allah it was the right decision to take.

Since this moment and I am developing my protecting system (yea an actual system with all its inputs and its output :D), it is a simple system that keeps me away from hurt or pain. It tells me when to stop, when to object, when to keep silent, when to go forward happily and when to let myself live in pain when it is worthy.

Its basic step is "don't feel hurt unless it is for someone who worth your pain. Don't cry over something that doesn't worth one tear from your eyes. Your tears and pain are more precious than wasting them over something that doesn't deserve them".

This system know exactly when to force my heart to shut up. I hear what my heart and my feelings say in everything until it starts doing something wrong, and here is when the system is activated and starts doing its job.

 I know this sound too wordy and can't be done in real life, but it can be done, believe me for this. I had troubles to do that at the start but eventually I found my way through. I convinced myself that the system is the one who does all these things not me. I can be sad or not in the mood and the system will be the one who stops the pain and the tears (seems schizophrenic right, well maybe).

I know that maybe I lost things along the road, but at least I know how to control my pain and how to keep it away from affecting my work. Although I had sooooo many problems in my life but I learned how to make them affect me the least while I had the chance to learn from each one of them. SO, maybe I lost one thing or two, but I won a hundred in return.

Don’t think I am tough or saving my heart in a box because I am not. I just know when to hear its sound and when to not. I know when to feel pain and when to not. I stayed for two days in bed not bearing to get up because of pain but it was for something that worth it.

It is six years now since I started building this system, and it seems too long. When I look back to these years, I know it wasn’t for nothing and it is totally worthy.

Always Be There

I had just found this a amazing song, I loved it. It is lyrics is beautiful and touched my heart.

Maher Zein is a good singer. I think he has good potentials. This song is his first album "Thank You Allah", it will be released soon. I heard another song from this same album called "Palestine will be free" and I liked it a lot. I recommend you to hear it also.

I hope you like "Always Be There" too.

Friday, October 30, 2009

Fun Theory

I found this post "Have Fun and A Community Will Follow". It made me think that the more natural you become, the more things will be easier. The more fun you have, the more relaxation you will have.

From my point of view, I think "Fun Theory" is so true. If you are doing something that you won't get paid in return for, then having fun while doing it will be the best return.
Doing things your way will help you to have more fun, and this what I am doing while writing. Sometimes I posted things that sounded crazy or even silly, but I never regretted doing that because I had fun while writing them.

I always try to have fun in my every day life. Although I am known with being rational and sober-minded, I admit doing the most foolish things ever, but it was fun. I work the best when I am having fun.

I invite you all to do the same, Having Fun is fun :D
Have Fun, nothing worth it. Everything will differ, you will be more relaxed and happier. Stop worring about everything and have fun. We only have few years to live and every second counts.

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Love

Over the years, people tried to identify "LOVE". Philosophers tried to put an exact definition of it. Doctors tried to explain its reason and which is responsible for it. Is it the heart, the brain or even the eyes?   

What I couldn't understand is why. Why they spent all that time and effort to explain what is mysterious. We keep searching for mysteries and when we find it, we do our best to figure it out. Why we don't just consider love as one of the biggest mysteries in life that no one will be able to figure it out no matter how much he tries. 

Love reveals our true soul with all its beauty and ugliness. This makes some people scare but this is where love's beauty exists. This is what makes love lights your life. You play no game, no other character. You stop thinking about others' opinions and what they think - not anymore-. You just be you.