Saturday, April 30, 2011


It's been a while since my last post. I missed blogging so much.

The past weeks weren't easy for me. My mind, as usual, started its war against me. I though about almost every moment I had in my life. I hate my ability to remember conversations happened years ago. It feels as if I live my past over and over.

I went in my old-known circle of questions that I don't have answers for. Why did I do this? Why did I say that? Why did I go away from this? Why did I get close to that? Where is everyone?
An endless circle of questions that I go through every time I am alone. Of course, every time new questions are added to the circle.

The only time I can break this circle in, is at work when I am surrounded by work load and deliveries. But at the moment I am alone, I jump back into the center of the circle.

I don't talk with people as much as I used to. They are busy or not in the mood to listen or there is a distance between us now. May be this is the reason of feeling alone now. I don't make friends easily, so I know I will be in this state for a while.

As I try to end this state, I decide to try a new solution. I am gonna write a new post everyday for 30 days.
It is gonna be a chance for me to let everything out. There is no specific topics in my mind, it will be just random thoughts I have.

To say the truth, this isn't my idea. I just found it in a friend's post and I think it may help.

Hope it works, and hope I can keep it running for the next 30 days.
Stay tune for my first out of thirty post tomorrow.