Saturday, November 17, 2012

Where Does Money Go ?

15 months ago, while I had a talk with my friend, Shaimaa, and we both realised that despite our good salaries, we had no idea where our money went. I promised her that if I ever were able to track my expenses, I will share it with her.

For the past 14 months, I have been tracking what I earn and what I spend using a simple spreadsheet to keep things easier for me.
So, here is me fulfilling my promise :)

  • It clearly reflects my phone usage rule "Don't use phone unless it is necessary".
  • Money spent on books is low, but as I am a new fan of reading books, I will consider it as a good sign.
  • I was expecting transportation to be much higher.
  • Medicine is relatively high because of the surgery I had last month.
  • I'd never expected tech-devices to be that much high.
  • I'm not surprised to see "others" percentage.
  • Of course you can imagine my surprise when I realised that I saved more than 40% of my total income :)

Monday, November 12, 2012

Me and Yang

Every time I watch Grey’s Anatomy, I can easily relate more to Cristina Yang. If I am gonna have a role in this series, I would definitely pick Yang.
She is great at work, yet her personal life always ends up in a miss. She looks tough and strong, yet she is sensitive and easily broken. She falls down so many times, yet she always comes back. She is supportive and always there for who needs her, yet she is always hurt by people she trusted the most. People admire her ambition and strength, yet they always try to change her as if she isn’t enough for them the way she is. She doesn't change, not because she doesn't want to, but because this is the way she is and no one gets it.

I love Grey’s Anatomy. I love Yang’s role. I really do.

One of my favorite closing voice-over (that is proven to be true):
“The ties that bind us are sometimes impossible to explain. They connect us even after it seems like the ties should be broken. Some bonds defy distance and time and logic; because some ties are simply... meant to be.”

One of my best scenes (wish to be on one end of such a phone call one day):

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

No More Glasses

Exactly two weeks ago I had my first surgery ever, a LASIK surgery.
I've been with glasses for 13 years, so it is was the time to get rid of them.
The surgery was done in less than 15 minutes. I have no haziness or pain, el hamdlelah.
I stayed away from the sun for 2 days, extensive eye drops for a week and now I use only one eye drop five times a day for six months.
Life without glasses is much easier.
I think taking surgery's decision was one of the best things I did for myself.

For details about the surgery, you can watch this video here. It is similar to what I had.

Monday, November 5, 2012

Be Fair

I have been told to always judge myself, my actions and what happens in my life. With every trouble I face with people, it's me who is always found guilty. It's always my fault, my mistake or my misjudgment. In only few times, I shared the guilt with others. But even then, I had the biggest share. Maybe, because fixing a problem in you is much easier than fixing it in others.

I know it's my controlling side, it believes that it's easier to deal with pain when you're the one who caused it, to think that it is your fault and this is your punishment, to not admit you have been deceived, cheated or betrayed and to recover after what you caused rather than what others caused.

The fact is that is partially true. We all share responsibility of what happens to us and how we are treated. But sometimes, in few cases, it is not your fault, it is not your fault at all.
It is not your fault that you trusted someone, believed in something, wished on the start or even gave it up.
It is not your fault when you know you have given it all you can, you did your best and you reached out for it. Sometimes it depends on others, luck or fate to reach back.

Just do your best, reach out as much as you can and wait and see.
And always, bring justice to yourself.